2020-11-25: Before I accepted my current job, I didn’t know if I liked kids or not. But now, I can safely say I …

2020-11-25: There’s a lovely young girl in first grade that loves to call me “Mar Mar.” Every time she sees me, …

2020-11-24: Some snow has melted and the weather was a bit warmer. One of the students must’ve made this …

2020-11-24: When I first moved to Montana, all the provisions I needed fit in two bags. Now, when I look around …

2020-11-23: It’s snowing. Coming from southern California where the weather was always 70º and sunny, the snow …

2020-11-23: Toward the end of June, I drove down to the river and made this recording of the sounds around me. …

2020-11-22: I’ve been vegan for almost four years, but I just recently started cooking with tofu. This is a …

2020-11-22: Other than living within the borders of my country, state, and town, I’ve been living within my own …

2020-11-21: I spent more time today tweaking my website. I updated my home page with a brief biography and I …

2020-11-21: Our first winter snowfall came last month, but it’s been nothing but rain since. More members of our …

2020-11-20: I had a really good time talking to a friend yesterday about my dreams. I told her that when I first …

2020-11-19: I’ve been iPad-only since I bought the first 9.7” iPad Pro four years ago. The 11” iPad Pro from …

2020-11-19: I love the smell after a night of deep rain. The world feels cleaner, like a shower after a long day …

2020-11-19: My goal for the next few months is to lose at least five pounds. I know it’s possible because I’ve …

2020-11-18: Is iPhone dependence similar to alcohol dependence? Because I think I’m suffering through that. I …

2020-11-17: A very foggy morning. Back to work but all I can think about is the future. Is it wise to get rid …

2020-11-17: I’ve been re-training my body the last few weeks, and I’ve never felt better. I gained some weight …

2020-11-16: I feel like the art I love creating the most is the art of capturing a memory. I journal to remember …

2020-11-15: Before COVID, I had dreams of traveling the world and living life to the fullest. Today, I don’t …

2020-11-14: Following Friday the 13th, Saturday the 14th doesn’t sound very spooky at all. It sounds anodyne in …

2020-11-13: What a beautiful sunrise this morning.

2020-11-13: If I had to guess the ratio of caffeine to blood coursing through my body, I’d say it’s about 50/50. …

2020-11-12: Good morning!

2020-11-12: Coming from California, I never had to worry about not wearing enough warm clothes. Living in …

2020-11-11: Currently reading: Alexander Hamilton by Ron Chernow 📚

2020-11-11: Instead of trying to figure out what to say next, I need to learn patience and the beauty of …

2020-11-10: Monday: Tuesday:

2020-11-10: Ever since I was a kid I’ve wondered what it would be like to be elderly, to be lying on my death …

2020-11-09: The best times of my life are when I let go and go with the flow rather than forcing things to go a …

2020-11-08: Languages My first language was Spanish but I stopped speaking it once I learned English. In high school, I …

2020-11-08: I spent some time tweaking a few aspects of my website that make me love my blog that much more. I …

2020-11-08: I felt like the whole world bounded together in unity yesterday, and I felt so good joy-scrolling …

2020-11-07: I wonder how many balloons get inflated every election season and how many bring more sorrow than …

2020-11-06: I love it when it rains.

2020-11-06: There are many things I find puzzling but nothing more so than rural Americans. What’s up with their …

2020-11-05: New haul. Excited!

2020-11-05: I read once that Leonardo da Vinci had the best posture. As a kid, I would try to walk as tall as I …

2020-11-04: Amazing that I shot this nine days ago, and the weather today was in the low 60s. Montana has the …

2020-11-04: I woke up a few hours after going to bed anxious about the election results. Trump declared victory …

2020-11-03: Did my first intense workout today since hurting my back three weeks ago. I’m finally starting to …

2020-11-03: I didn’t sleep well last night. I lied in bed and scrolled through Instagram, double tapping on all …

2020-11-02: I had my very first physical therapy appointment today, and all in all, I’m unimpressed. I think I …

2020-11-02: I dreamt of an old friend last night, one I haven’t seen for a very long time. I ran to her the …

2020-11-01: I am very happy my succulents haven’t died yet. I also love these pots.

2020-11-01: Last night I dreamt I lost my camera bag in a shuttle after landing in LA, but I was having too much …

2020-10-31: Beautiful sunrise yesterday morning. Also, the iPhone 12 Pro takes beautiful photos.

2020-10-23: Pain Yesterday, I went to my local clinic to visit with my doctor. My back had been killing me since last …

2020-10-18: The past couple of days have been rough. I’ve been battling a debilitating back pain that has forced …

2020-10-09: It was a beautiful fall day today.

2020-10-03: Fixed I received my fixed Fujifilm X-T20 camera yesterday. I didn’t realize how much I missed it until I …

2020-09-29: My town is weird.

2020-09-28: Gaslighting is a form of psychological abuse whereby one is manipulated by someone else into …

2020-09-16: Phenology I learned a new word today. Phenology is the close study of nature’s rhythms. It relates to the …

2020-09-15: Basics The basics start with my notebook and pen. I need to get my thoughts and feelings down on the page …

2020-09-14: Depression For the past few weeks, and possibly the past month, I’ve been depressed. I had lost the will to do …

2020-09-11: Sisters. Need I say more?

2020-09-10: Mom I’m breaking from tradition and posting a picture I took a few days ago. I think this finally frees …

2020-09-09: Twenty My mom flew in on Sunday, and I’ve been hanging out with her and my nieces the past few days. I’ve …

2020-09-08: Devourer I haven’t been on a walk in a few weeks. It’s been work work work non-stop, and it’s been getting to …

2020-09-04: Eternity Taking the week off from writing felt both long and not long enough. Taking the week off from …

2020-09-03: School has been a mess. The teachers are infuriating, but I’m happy to see the students back. I went …

2020-09-02: X-T4 New camera. After I dropped and broke my Fujifilm X-T20 last week, I ordered the X-T4. It arrived …

2020-08-27: I dropped my camera on Tuesday, and now it won’t hold any of the settings. Each time I turn it on, …

2020-08-26: Hopeful School starts today, and I’m not ready for it. I’m not ready for any of this. But I’m hopeful that …

2020-08-25: Unaware The staff returned yesterday, and they’re back again today. School starts tomorrow, and I’m not …

2020-08-24: Phase The Waxing Crescent Moon Checked in with the moon last night, and I immediately felt a peace I …

2020-08-23: Grey I finally finished The Last of Us Part II, and I loved it. That seems to be an unpopular opinion …

2020-08-22: Insanity School starts next week, and I’m both eager to see the kids but anxious at the same time. I’m not …

2020-08-21: Mantis After helping a co-worker with a computer request, I stepped out of the building and saw a shadow in …

2020-08-20: Serendipity Went on my first walk of the week yesterday on the prowl for a praying mantis, but I found this …

2020-08-19: Burn As I sit down to write this, there’s an active and loud thunderstorm outside, and it sounds …

2020-08-18: Chill Death Valley recorded 130ºF temperatures over the weekend. It wasn’t as hot here yesterday, but it …

2020-08-17: Rainbows I played The Last of Us Part II last night after eating half a dozen vegan burritos and downing four …

2020-08-16: Love/Hate I reactivated my Instagram account last night and posted some of the photos I’ve taken for this …

2020-08-15: Hungover I woke up this morning hungover and hungry. I bought another pack of beer with a skull on it, and it …

2020-08-14: Absorb I went for my first walk of the week. I wasn’t expecting anything special, but when I looked out …

2020-08-13: Listen It was a cold and cloudy day, and I spent a majority of it indoors. I skipped another workout …

2020-08-12: Dread Sat down to take a breath in my office and wondered how much time I had left before school started. …

2020-08-11: Muzzled Like I feared, the pain in my lower back has impacted how I spend my time. It hurts to get out of …

2020-08-10: Lazy Drove my car through a car wash and enjoyed the show. After, I took my car for a drive and tested my …

2020-08-09: Magician Bought new tires for my car and imagined the unknown and untravelled journey that lies ahead. This …

2020-08-08: Reopening A few nights ago, the school board approved a tentative reopening plan for the 2020–2021 school …

2020-08-07: Month The Waning Gibbous Moon Woke up to a power outage, and my first thought was, Shit, I can’t make …

2020-08-06: Stasis “Still more cows than people.” The other day I asked a friend if she had read any of my entries on …

2020-08-05: Moon I watched the moon hang full and bright in the night sky as I dreamt about night trails and camping …

2020-08-04: Weird At the post office On my walk, I stood by the street corner on Main St. and waited for a car to …

2020-08-03: Roar “Fuck Trump” Went for a drive. I needed to feel the pavement and the illusion of freedom the open …

2020-08-02: Debts Flipped through an old notebook in search for the reasons why I moved to Montana eight years ago. A …

2020-08-01: X A former presidential candidate died from the coronavirus earlier this week. A few weeks before, he …

2020-07-31: Identity If I grew up in Montana, would I be a cowboy today? Would I walk into this shop and be excited to …

2020-07-30: Haze The day was hot and thick with smoke, the type of smoke that seeps into your skin and clouds your …

2020-07-29: Ghosts At one point yesterday the weather said it was 94º and raining. I looked outside and saw one dark …

2020-07-28: Warning It’s sandal weather. I’ve been wearing them on my long walks around the neighborhood. Can it be …

2020-07-27: Sunflower Went for a long walk yesterday. My shyness and anxiety seems to be fading away, and I was reminded …

2020-07-26: Fair “Fair Is On!!” I went for a walk yesterday and found out Lake County will hold their annual fair …

2020-07-25: Tired Some notes on sleep I’ve been more tired this week than at any other time in recent memory, and I …

2020-07-24: Heritage Tools of the Trade Growing up, I never felt like I fit into any group. To paraphrase Miguel, I felt …

2020-07-23: Normalcy Kids (0–18) Free Food I finished Ling Ma’s Severance yesterday, an entertaining plague novel that …

2020-07-22: Aflame Temperatures will reach the 90s this week, and I’ve been without an AC in my office for weeks. …

2020-07-21: Anew I poured wine into a wine glass last night, and I noticed how the light interacted with it, and I …

2020-07-20: Endless I walked to the park and took photographs of flowers and insects and birds. I walked along the creek …

2020-07-19: Bravery The other day I asked a photographer how she has the confidence to carry a camera with her …

2020-07-18: Osprey One day in high school, a teacher of mine went around his class and asked my classmates what they …

2020-07-17: Existence As I went to smell the flowers, I saw this little guy enjoying the sun and running around his leaf. …

2020-07-16: Macro I spent time with new friends yesterday, and they showed me a good time. I had a lot of fun …

2020-07-15: Carson On the latest episode of The Last Archive, Jill Lepore talks about Rachel Carson and her book, …

2020-07-14: Dreams Battled more headaches yesterday, but I found relief in aspirin and writing in my notebook. A couple …

2020-07-13: Wasted A majority the world has denied Americans access to their countries, deeming my passport worthless. …

2020-07-12: Death Last night I drank beer from a can with the word death and a skull on it. So I had a good night. I …

2020-07-11: Mountains I drove back on Nine Pipe Rd with my new lens and snapped a few shots of geese and the mountains, …

2020-07-10: Lens My new lens arrived yesterday. It’s Fuji’s XF80mm Macro lens, and it’s great. I need to get used …

2020-07-09: Fall Yesterday, America set a new record of confirmed coronavirus cases. The previous one was set last …

2020-07-08: Fear There’s potential evidence of community spread of COVID–19 in my county, which follows news from …

2020-07-07: Consistency Last year, I began to lift weights more seriously. My heaviest weights at the time were a pair of …

2020-07-06: Legacy My thoughts have been on photography lately, on lenses and camera bodies, on techniques and …

2020-07-05: Fireworks Spent the night getting drunk and watching fireworks on TV. I know our president gave a speech …

2020-07-04: Sleep Earlier this week, I turned on Do Not Disturb on all of my devices and set my phone to silent. I …

2020-07-03: Projecting One fear I want to overcome is the fear of carrying my mirrorless camera with me outside. I wanted …

2020-07-02: Heartbeat I dreamt that someone close to me was dying. She lied beside me, and I felt her heartbeat. It was …

2020-07-01: Headache Battled through a headache for most of the day, but I managed to find peace in the storm clouds. I …

2020-06-30: Terrors I dreamt that I told the devil to fuck off, then heard a young child’s joyful laughter as I lied …

2020-06-29: Changes A rare selfie I spent most of yesterday thinking about changes and I spent most of this morning …

2020-06-28: Walls I went to the river to think. I parked near an old fire pit with a used diaper in it, a fitting …

2020-06-27: Apocalypse Before the apocalypse, I had been writing a novel about a man who watched his friend lose …

2020-06-26: Screens I dreamt last night of family I’ve never met. My father’s people. My dream people. It was a fitting …

2020-06-25: Voices Drank last night. Been battling through some of the voices in my head and wondering if I’ve …

2020-06-24: Blindness Once, a friend of mine introduced me to one of her friends as the tech guy. Her friend looked me …

2020-06-23: Apple Apple started their online-only developer’s conference yesterday, and as I watched the entire …

2020-06-22: Father’s Day My father died twelve years ago, on the 18th of June, 2008. I graduated from USC a month before, and …

2020-06-21: A guitarist There’s a scene early on in The Last of Us Part II where Ellie and Dina find an old music store, and …

2020-06-20: Wearing a mask Montana recorded 11 new cases of the coronavirus yesterday. Someone I know had a family member test …

2020-06-19: Let’s go! So, here it is, my very first blog post on my brand new website. It’s been a long road to get here, …