Automatic

There are so many things I want to do, tasks that have been on my todo list for a long time, but I just haven’t found the time to do them. These things aren’t time-sensitive, but there are things I want to do because I think they’ll make me better in some way. There are tasks in there that involve my novel, others that can improve my social life, and more that touch on health, productivity, knowledge, curiosity, and more. My current routines fill up the seventeen hours I’m awake. That’s really one more hour than I should be awake for, but there’s a lot of things I need to do.

This blog is wearing out its welcome, and I think it has strayed far from its original intention. I’m actually afraid of feeling this way, and here’s why. Everything feels great right now. Everything’s running smoothly, and I’m doing everything I want to do. But if I get complacent, then I will break my routine at some point, and I’ll be okay with that for some time. Eventually, I’m going to regress: I’ll start drinking, stop exercising, and maybe start bothering people I shouldn’t be thinking about anymore. I just have to keep pushing forward, no matter how hard, time-intensive, or repetitive it may get. This blog keeps me focused.

I am exhausted right now. I’m fourteen days into the hybrid Insanity workout, and I feel great. I really feel strong and healthy and happier. And I look better than I’ve ever looked before. All this is awesome, but since it’s so routine, I forgot I have over 100 more days of this. I finally ordered the second volume of the Asylum, and that’s the workout I’m going to start on the first of December. I’m either going to be in the greatest shape of my life come New Years Day, or I’ll be down with some injury because I pushed myself too hard. It all feels so automatic that I barely even think about it anymore. I hope I don’t get hurt, though.

Speaking of automatic, I recently purchased the Automatic dongle for my car. It’s this little device that hooks up to my car that tells me everything I need to know about the state of my car. It hooks up to an iPhone app and deciphers all those check engine lights, it studies my gas usage and gives me tips on how I can be more efficient, and studies my driving patterns and teaches me how to drive a bit better. At least, that’s what the website says it’ll do. I should be getting this tomorrow, so I’ll see how useful this little gadget will be. I also bought this leather notebook holder for my pocket notebooks. I bought it because it looks classy, and I tend to be rough with my notebooks, so I hope this handmade leather holder will help protect it a bit. The company that makes them spends time hand-crafting each one, so even though I ordered this a few days ago, it won’t ship for a few more weeks. Hopefully the quality shows through.

And I can’t stop thinking about a girl I shouldn’t be thinking about. She’s so pretty, though. Ugh, it’s frustrating. I can’t, though. I can’t.

Right?