Finding That Balance

I spent close to $700 at the mechanics for my fourth — FOURTH!! — power steering pump in less than a year: the original, the one from California that crapped out on me in Idaho, the one replacing the California one from my super shady and crappy auto dealer, and this new one from a more reliable business. I think this one will last until my entire car dies out. And $700 isn’t that much money, when it’s all said and done. The guys in California charged me a few bucks short of a grand, so I’m okay with it. Besides, I need my car. There’s no way in hell I’m not paying to get it repaired, regardless of the costs. I need a car to go to work and to go to the Division of Fire for when another fire breaks loose. Speaking of which, IT’S RAINING AND IT HAS BEEN FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS AND IT DOESN’T LOOK LIKE THERE’S GOING TO BE A FIRE ANYTIME SOON. What the shit?

Even though I spent that much money, a huge weight is off my shoulders. I was worried I wasn’t going to be able to go grocery shopping this weekend, but now that my car is fixed and I trust it again, I feel better. I’ve been perusing through my Paleo cookbooks I received earlier this week, and it’s exciting me. There’s this super easy and amazing looking ICE CREAM recipe in one of them that looks delicious. I want to make that. I might have to slow down on buying any new kitchen tools, until I catch up with my finances, but that’s okay. I’ll make due with what I’ve got. I did just buy a food processor, after all.

Day 5 of Insanity Max: 30 went well. It was Friday Fight: Round 1, and boy was it a fight. I was exhausted six minutes into it, and I had 24 minutes to go. By the end, I was just dripping in sweat, and I felt amazing. I had steak for dinner, for the first time in over a month, and both my belly and my soul are satisfied. I’m still weighing in the high 170s, but I’m okay with that because it’s not going up. I’ve got some fat to lose, and once I do, I’ll be back to normal, and I hope by then I will have momentum with my newish routine. I’m reading more, which is making me happy, and working out, which is making me happy, and I’m going to start cooking more soon, which I know will make me happy.

I’m excited to start this last leg of my journey that I started ten months (!!) ago. I swung from one extreme to the other, and I’m ready to find some balance, and so far, I think I can do it. I have to fill a good chunk of my day with downtime, like watching TV, or fun, like playing video games, but I also have to fill it in with reading and working out and writing. And I have to be less strict on doing things daily. If I find that balance, I think I’ll do fine for the next 365 days come September. Lets hope, right?