Mario Villalobos

So Very Tired

The easiest thing to write about is what I’m feeling right now, and right now I’m feeling tired. It feels so good just lying in bed right now. My muscles are healing from the brutal Insanity workout I did today, and since work was extra tiring today, I’m really tempted to just rush through this entry and heal. But since I keep preaching about how nothing hard is not worth doing, I must march on.

I taught my first real drama lesson today. It was only a few minutes, maybe ten minutes, and the kids didn’t seem at all interested in what I was talking about, but I liked it. I definitely need to practice and get better at this, but I liked it nonetheless. It’s been awhile since I’ve personally dissected a move scene, but it was fun involving the class in it. I talked about the director and what he brings to the scene, the editor and what he brings to the scene, and the actors and what they brought to the scene, and I prefaced all of that with what a story is and how important conflict is. It looks like next week I start my focus class, and if I do, that’s where I’ll be delving even deeper into this subject. It’s fun, and I’m having fun.

It’s a bit past 8 PM right now, and the sun is shining brightly outside. I love Montana during spring and summer. The days can get so long, and there’s something about the sunshine — especially when I took it for granted in California and after these dreadfully long winters without it — that makes me happy. I signed up (finally) for firefighting this summer, I met my good friend Matt there, and we caught up briefly. He’s not firefighting this summer, which was horrible news to me, but I know I’ll see him around.

I love fire season. I love all the friends I’ve made and the whole environment, where I hang out with other firefighters and we live together on the mountain, and we fight the fires together. There’s a camaraderie there that I really love and miss, and I can’t wait to get back there. I need to take my physical exam on Tuesday, then my pack test and refresher course someday after that and I’ll be set for this season. I can’t wait to get all of this done.

Did I mention how tired I am right now? I did? Okay. I won’t mention it again.

I don’t know exactly how I’ll feel about this entry in the future, but I have to admit (if you haven’t noticed already) that my lethargy has caused me to produce a subpar entry. Like I said in the beginning, I’ve only written about what’s on the surface of my mind because it’s easy to do so. Sometimes I have days like today, where I’m more tired than anything, and where pushing myself might not be the best thing. I think I need to learn how to take it easy. Either way, here’s to 233 days!