Wed October 8th, 2014

Day 31: Unmotivated

I almost didn’t workout today. On my way home from work, I remembered that I forgot to pick up my MacBook’s power charger from my office. I figured I didn’t need it, so I left it. While at home, I realized how much power-intensive tasks I do, and I didn’t want to run out of juice and not be able to write tomorrow morning. So I drove back to work, which is a twenty mile drive round-trip. Half an hour later, with power charger in hand, I returned home, tired, annoyed, and very unmotivated. I thought about not working out. I felt like one cheat day wasn’t going to kill me. It was also the Asylum’s Back to Core workout, which is one of my least favorite workouts because it’s one of the toughest. For those that don’t know, these Asylum workouts average around 45 minutes apiece. It was already close to six when I got back. My bedtime’s ten. I still needed to shower, eat, read, and write. I have to pack so much in such a short amount of time. Since I wake up at five every morning to write, I need some time to sleep. In the end, though, I worked out, and I performed really well. I really feel stronger, and the only thing that’s changed are those whey protein powder shakes. I think they’re really making a difference. Not so much aesthetically, however, but I’ll get there.

I haven’t made any progress on the goals I made with myself yesterday. I don’t feel too bad about that yet. They’re in my OmniFocus inbox, ready to be processed. Today was just busy at work. There seems to be a new problem with Infinite Campus every day, and those usually take priority over everything else. It’s really the school’s heart. Everything happens there: grades, attendance, rosters, etc. I’ve also been learning and getting into the Group Policy Manager in Windows Server 2012. This is where I manage all the users and all the computers on the school’s network. My predecessor organized this in a weird way, and I’ve been trying to wrap my head around it. There are some groups he should’ve created, and others that don’t mean anything or are redundant. There are some rules that he thinks affect only a small subset of users (hence those groups he should’ve created but didn’t), but instead affect all authenticated users. He was smart enough to pretty much install the whole network while he was here, so I figured there was a reason for his madness, but I’ve yet to figure that out. I’m also not a Group Policy ninja so there might be something I’m missing. It’s tedious work sometimes, but I’m having fun. I get to geek out at work and get paid for it.

This is another one of those entries. What did I learn today? I have a mind, and I have a heart. They are two entirely different entities and should be equally respected. I’m a heart guy. I didn’t feel like working out, but I knew it would’ve been detrimental to me in my future if I didn’t. So I did. I also know the more I lean toward my mind and ignore my heart, the worse that’ll be for me. I have to find a balance.

How? No fucking clue.


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