It’s such a relief not being beholden to anything. Life, granted it’s just one day of life, has never felt so quiet, and that’s a good thing. It’s relaxing and rejuvenating. This entry is really the only thing I’m holding myself to, and that’s more than enough for me right now. That guilt I thought I’d feel and that I used to feel is not there anymore. Now, I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing, but it’s a thing I’m keeping my eye on right now. I don’t want to erase all the progress I’ve made since September, but I also don’t want to lose my mind.
Work is going well. Today was the last day of school, and I also cracked Zero-Touch Installation with System Center Configuration Manager. Finally. What this means is that I can deploy Windows 8.1 to all my machines without actually touching the machines. That means I can send out a command from my office computer on Friday before I leave, come back on Monday and find that most, if not all, of the computers I wanted to upgrade have been upgraded. That makes me feel so powerful. This upgrade project just got a whole lot easier and even more amazing because I can customize the sequence of how this OS is installed. I can tell it which apps to install, what to backup and restore once the upgrade is complete, and a whole host of other things. No one man should have all this power!
I woke up at 5:30 AM today. That’s my new wakeup time, one I’m at least testing out. You know what? I feel great. I woke up well-rested and ready to start my day. I lived my day well and without any crankiness. I also didn’t work out because I didn’t feel like it. Now that’s something I’m going to have to keep my eye on. It’s far easier not to workout than to workout, and I don’t want to find myself one month from now 5-10 lbs heavier and completely out of the exercise habit. I still need to keep myself focused on some things; I’m just trying not to hurt myself in the process.
Yes, life is short, and I really don’t want to live it in mediocrity, but I’ve really only been out of my regular routine for a month. The previous eight months were amazing, but the time before that wasn’t as crazy, and I lived my life relatively happily. The reason I was so hard on myself is no longer a reason, and now I have to regroup and refocus and rediscover how I want to live my life again. My novel is done and fire season is almost here and work is going to be fun and I’m trying new things and I’m seeing what works and what doesn’t. Experimentation is fun. I can’t to find out what new things stick around and what old things I can bring back and see how all that makes my life look and feel. Stay tuned.